12th February. My last post. It’s been 6 months since I last published, and I swear this has by far been the messiest time I’ve ever been through. I meant to take a small break from writing, to be able to focus on studying for my finals. Yet when exams were over, I somehow missed out on getting back to what I know best. There have been more ups and downs during these last months than ever before, and I feel like I should have never stopped writing to. And yet.. maybe it was necessary for me to find out that I need it. After all, we all need something to let off steam, some outlet that brings back balance to our life.

Anyway, I’m back now. And I mean to stay this time.

One thing I’ve learnt recently is that we all need some sort of structure in our lives. We need organization, something to rely on, because at times, when nothing seems to go our way, we still have something that makes us feel like we have at least some control over our lives. Structure is basically a precondition for one’s sanity. A mind that has no reference points whatsoever, eventually goes mad. These holidays, especially after finishing high school, being a main event in most people’s life, are wicked. For a lot of you, as for me, this is a time of major change and I can tell you that I am afraid of what is to come. I worry a lot, and at times feel unable to accept any kind of change in my life.

And yet, we can’t stop time, nor can we know what the future holds for us. All that’s left for us to do, is to stay positive, keeping both eyes on our goals and follow the flow of our life.

We have to be prepared for change, accept it, embrace it.

If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude.- Maya Angelou

Invent yourself,CK

When did we grow up?

Having started my last year of High School today, I have realized how far I’ve come without being aware. Where did the time go? When did we replace faking to be older than we are to actually being old enough to enter nightclubs?

Often enough we worry about being stuck, about our life not moving forward fast enough or not at all. Whenever something goes wrong we’re afraid that our life does not turn out the way we want it to and that we can’t get things done. Yet, looking back on 6 years of secondary school, it’s crazy how much I’ve been through. 

In less than a year, it’ll all be about exams and only a few weeks and probably the maddest week in Lloret later, we’ll be living on our own, pretending to be grown-ups. From asking to be allowed to go to the toilet- to cooking, washing and being responsible in general in less than a year. 

We’ve come a long way and for those in the same position as me, it’ll be the most challenging year in our lives. It will be all about finding time to make the most of the last year as non-graduates while preparing the final exams.

Time flies by and this year will be over soon enough- if you’re ready or not. Remind yourself that if you intend to leave Luxembourg to study abroad, this is the last year to turn things right, to prove haters wrong, to spend time with the people you love and who love you. 

In less than a year, your life will take a turn. Be ready, and trust the universe, it’ll take you where you need to be.
Invent yourself,CK